Being in the health and wellness industry gives me the opportunity to share my advice and feelings on many health related topics. I enjoy writing from my heart, have had great feedback on my blogs, and I truly enjoy using self deprecating humor and analogies. I think it bring the realness to my articles and as I have said many, many times “just and ordinary guy doing extraordinary things.
Pulling experiences can sometimes be very easy, and sometimes not, really honesty in my opinion is what makes our site what it is. So in that vein this week’s topic is my alcohol abuse, finding myself, conquering the demon, and getting through it.
Personally I am a problem drinker, being a very, almost obsessive compulsive, ( if there is such a thing), tends to feed into the demon of my alcohol abuse. It has been almost 19 years since I “Indulged”, and frankly when helping others with their health and fitness compulsive behaviors are common.
I started drinking at the tender age of sixteen, and frankly did not like the effects, at first. At that time, (late 70’s) it was a different time and alcohol use and abuse was common and accepted, almost encouraged. It was the socially acceptable thing to do, so I became accustomed to using and started the slow descent into problem drinking.
I drank consistently and at times abusively for twenty years, ( and for that let me say I am sorry to everyone I may have been a jerk off to), so when I finally did quit, I was surprised at how easy it was, I just decided one day to stop, period. However the demon was still in my mind and not until I saw a psychologist for 6 months did I come to understand my “why”.
He explained to me there are two types of people as far as alcohol abuse is concerned, the alcoholic, and the problem drinker, binger, and the drunk. One is a sickness and a chemical dependency, the other is a compulsive destructive behavior that when you start you can’t stop; its hammer town or nothing. Both are terrible and potentially deadly.
My therapist made me understand my internal “why”, the OCD behavior that is what makes me, me. That knowledge, that understanding, has helped me to grow as an individual, understand that compulsions that are channeled into a positive energy can be a very good thing, that everyone has the potential for some sort of behavior disorder; it is just understanding your “why”.
I love being sober, love my life and my family my job, my friends and all of you who follow my writings, those who want to improve their lives.
If I still was consuming I would have never married my wife almost ten years ago, she would not have had me. The point of this whole blog is growth and change. That anything is possible, that achieving unreachable goals is possible, that finding people and finding yourself is truly possible.
Channeling your growth and your life into the positive is completely achievable, you just have to try.
I will revisit this topic, obviously there is so much more that can be discussed, however I am at my word limit. I just want to say if you are in that place and you don’t like it you can change, never give up, we all have so much to give, and life is a beautiful thing.
[This post, written by Tom Matt, was originally published on grtfitness.com, but we want to share it here, as well. –Mickey, Editor and Webmaster]